My Birthday Boy

May 19, 2012

Dearest Boy,
Eleven years ago this night you were on the brink of being born. I didn’t know my missing piece was about to be placed into the wedge nothing else could fill. I didn’t even know you existed. I certainly didn’t know you were about to be mine. I get weepy just typing this note to you. You cannot know how much love was sewn into your life’s garment. It’s baffling, really. It took almost 4 years of thinking I knew exactly how God was going to bring my children to me–and failing utterly–to bring me to a quiet, humble place where I could grow into your mom. Without those years, without the emptiness, without my casting around in desperation, I would not have been ready. I wasn’t ready before you. I didn’t know this.

God knew.

Four years of powerful aching was pacified by a wriggling 7 pound baby with big red lips and a deep, beautiful dimple.

Four years of pain now buried under 11 years of the greatest joy your dad and I have ever known.

You were the perfect baby for us–hand-picked by your Creator.
You were perfect.
You are perfect.


Happy birthday, sweet son.

5 thoughts on “My Birthday Boy

  1. A phone call I can remember like yesterday. I remember seeing the caller ID and thinking I don’t know anyone there. I remember hearing your voice, your words and the great joy that surrounded that day. God did know!! What a blessing he is!! God always seems to know what’s best for us. Sometimes we just have to wait on Him to show us in HIS TIME. Happy Birthday to your boy tomorrow. My how time flies. I have always felt like he has two days of celebration. His birth into this world and his birth into your family day. Both amazing days!!! Love you all!!

  2. It was an exciting, joyful day for sure! We’re so thankful God gave that sweet boy to our family. Give him a birthday hug from us.

  3. . he truly is the perfect child for our family. i also remember the call i got about 11:30 am on the 22nd. what joy that brought. happy 11th b’day andrew! we love you so much!

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