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  • Endings

    November 24, 2020 by

    I hate endings. I have always hated them. I hate finishing books and movies. I hate the end of a lovely vacation. I’m not even willing to watch a toxic friendship wither without some grieving on the side. I believe my angst from this is part subtraction and part addition. The joy or satisfaction of… Read more

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  • The Magic Show

    August 14, 2020 by

    Dear Andrew, Most of our longest talks were done before you were 10 years old. Now you are 19 and tomorrow you move out. I know we won’t be having a talk then. You are excited, as you should be. You are pulling away and spreading out as you need to. You are growing in… Read more

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  • Choosing my own adventure

    July 10, 2020 by

    When I was a kid, I absolutely devoured the Choose Your Own Adventure books. I loved them because I loved reading. I loved them because the options seemed limitless. And I loved them because I had control over the ending. I read each one multiple times, trying to end it differently each time. Control is… Read more

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  • Long Haul

    July 9, 2020 by

    So much has happened.Nothing has happened.My world is sometimes unrecognizable, but that’s likely because I never had time to look at it before. I’ve been writing. I haven’t been writing here. It’s hard to do both, but I’m going to make a stronger effort.In the last few weeks, my oldest graduated but did not have… Read more

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  • Sometimes nothing is everything

    June 5, 2020 by

    Yesterday was a day of nothing and it was a day of everything. It was a day I’ll remember for awhile.A day in which the girls painted their nails and ate sandwiches for lunch.A day that had me pulled up in a line of cars to celebrate my senior who most certainly did not want… Read more

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  • In this Together

    April 16, 2020 by

    Everything I needed to know about living through a global pandemic, I learned in 1983. I just didn’t know it then. We’re all in this together.I keep seeing that. Americans were a little late to the party, but we sure came in loud and proud. We showed up.We felt a little mad at China. Sanitize,… Read more

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  • The Darkness and the Light

    April 11, 2020 by

    There’s a lot of bad things going on the world right now. A lot of people sick and dying from a disease they’d never heard of when they were opening their Christmas gifts on December 25. A lot of people losing jobs. A lot of people in fear of losing jobs. Weddings and graduations that… Read more

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  • Q and A about this and that

    March 23, 2020 by

    I started a 30 day hugging experiment a good week before the bottom fell out of normal life. I was 23 hugs and 12 days into a whole new lifestyle, which I planned to follow with a pretty kicking blog. I had begun to write it already. It started like this: If I go down… Read more

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  • #50×50

    March 7, 2020 by

    In the winter of 2000, on the brink of my 30th birthday, the fact that I had no children was a tremendous source of grief and stress to me. I thought about it by the hour. I didn’t want that birthday. I didn’t feel like there was much to celebrate. By my 40th, I had… Read more

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  • A World Without Pants

    February 28, 2020 by

    The last time I had dreams like this one, I was days from meeting Andrew’s birth family for the first time since he was born. I’m not days away from anything of the sort, but the dreams I’ve had this week tell a different story. I’m never wearing pants. We live in a world that… Read more

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